Yes, I finally found him. Yeap I know it sounds more like when you're just in love or just married, not when you're already together for six years and a baby is on the way. But lately, I think I have just fallen in love with him again. I finally found the right man.
You know how pregnancy can make you go crazy and how the hormones are going bonkers, he was there with me, comforting me and teasing me at times just to make me feel better. I would never ever give up anything to change that. It's easy falling in love with guys, but not easy to finally settle with Mr. Right. I don't think I want to go through that process all over again, only to find that he's not really The One.
He went through with me so much in the past six years, and although it may not be as long as some relationships out there, I know I can count on him, depend on him for everything. Tolerating with me (being the only child) can be quite challenging at times. Well, the reason why I said I found The One is because he pampers me the way my parents used to, and perhaps even more, like how a husband would do. Thinking back as I'm writing this, I'm smiling to myself because I remember how at times I would get all emotional and kept crying for no reasons. And there he will be, right next to me, just to cuddle me and tell me everythings alright. Haha and then the next day he'll tell me, he got panicked because he didn't know what to do, yet he had to maintain his 'cool'. Haha!
I know you will always hold my hand and walk with me until we have grey hair and false teeth. I know you will always pamper me the way I like it. I know you will always support me in anything I do (even though I may be wrong at times). I know I have a bad temper and I know you will always have a way to cool me down and talk sense with me, I know you've just got your way with me.
But, I want you to know that I too, will walk hand in hand with you, go through all our ups and downs, for the rest of our lives. I want to and will be your pillar of strength, I want to make you laugh and take away all your worries for as long as I can. I want to...so many other things.
I am so blessed, and all I want to say is, I LOVE YOU, for being my everything. I guess I just, found you.
Friday, October 15, 2010
Monday, October 4, 2010
Out of sight, out of mind.....how true?
October 2010, marked the seventh month since I left my ex company, my first ever job, my bunch of good friends whom I've worked/played hard with for four years. All our laughters, tears, ups and downs were shared together and suddenly, they're all gone.
My mom used to say, "Out of sight, out of mind" to me whenever I'm away from home and if I ever forgot to return a phone call. Sometimes I would be busy, sometimes..well yeah perhaps I stray a little. But the thing is, I believe distance does make people grow apart, no matter how much you put an effort in keeping in touch. At least that's what I think.
I miss my old job, I miss my bunch of crazy coliqs. Period. That place had been like a second home to me, if you guys know what kinda working hours we endured. But, regardless the torments and endless last minute orders from The Boss, we love working together, because we worked hard and played hard and shared all the failures and sweet success together. That's what it is all about. I found my 'place', somewhere I totally belong, and the job I love to do.
Seven months seem to make everything go away like it's been seven years. And being pregnant at this very time didn't help much because I was constantly being so emotional. Eg: Not liking my job, can't find my sense of belonging at this foreign new environment (although some of the peeps here are extremely nice). I missed everything I used to do. People who used to be closed to me are now good friends with others. Who am I to blame, my physical self is apparently missing, and a phone call or Skype don't seem like the best alternative to share stories. It is then that I feel really disappointed, regretful, hurt and very sorry for myself for how things turned out.
I just wish things would be better, a new year and exciting year in 2011. I can't wait to embrace all the good things that are to come (I hope), especially Junior, whom I can't wait to hold. I need to find myself, my sense of belonging, my confidence, my happiness and my success again.
My mom used to say, "Out of sight, out of mind" to me whenever I'm away from home and if I ever forgot to return a phone call. Sometimes I would be busy, sometimes..well yeah perhaps I stray a little. But the thing is, I believe distance does make people grow apart, no matter how much you put an effort in keeping in touch. At least that's what I think.
I miss my old job, I miss my bunch of crazy coliqs. Period. That place had been like a second home to me, if you guys know what kinda working hours we endured. But, regardless the torments and endless last minute orders from The Boss, we love working together, because we worked hard and played hard and shared all the failures and sweet success together. That's what it is all about. I found my 'place', somewhere I totally belong, and the job I love to do.
Seven months seem to make everything go away like it's been seven years. And being pregnant at this very time didn't help much because I was constantly being so emotional. Eg: Not liking my job, can't find my sense of belonging at this foreign new environment (although some of the peeps here are extremely nice). I missed everything I used to do. People who used to be closed to me are now good friends with others. Who am I to blame, my physical self is apparently missing, and a phone call or Skype don't seem like the best alternative to share stories. It is then that I feel really disappointed, regretful, hurt and very sorry for myself for how things turned out.
I just wish things would be better, a new year and exciting year in 2011. I can't wait to embrace all the good things that are to come (I hope), especially Junior, whom I can't wait to hold. I need to find myself, my sense of belonging, my confidence, my happiness and my success again.
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